Definitely in a rhythm now, which allows me more time to think about this choice.
Am I nuts?
Who drinks shakes for sustenance? What am I, a member of a future dystopia from one of those science fiction books I read too many of?
I feel fantastic. I am laughing more, I do not feel pushed to the brink of my sanity by my kids, and no matter what the day has been like, I have been greeting my husband with a smile.
But throughout the day, sometime I feel like I am free-falling through space, nothing to grab onto, and nowhere to land. I have flashes of panic: will I NEVER eat pizza again? No, wait pizza, I didn't mean it like that. Can't we still be friends? At least facebook friends? I need you in my life!
I'm not having cravings. In fact, I am enjoying the whole foods I'm eating a lot. I have been longing to eat like this for years. But I identify so closely with certain foods, that I feel like I am ending a relationship, losing a part of myself.
Oh, and I do really LOVE the taste of pizza.
I'm drooling a little bit.
I might write a poem about it.
Ode to pizza! Mi amor! Cara mia!
Ok, maybe I'm having some cravings.
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